Dear Man,
I hope you
remembered that girl who was precious gift for you. Her flying kiss and text
could take away all your sorrows. She was the girl who loved you through bad,
loved you through good, loved you through sad. She was the one you told her
about your dreams; your darkest secrets. She was the girl you relieved to get a
person like her in your life. You shared everything with her. She loved you
completely and promised to be with you always.
When you entered my life, you
promised me that you would always be there for me. Slowly I started believing
you, I was introvert but I told you my darkest secrets and showed you my
deepest wounds. I told every little thing about my life. I was shy type of girl
but when I was with you I thought I was in heaven. We had many things in
common. I trusted you and your every word. From every sweet morning text to
good night texts. You shared every small details of your day. We exchanged our
favorite songs and talked about lyrics. In all this I didn't realize that you
were slowly becoming my life. I tried my best not to fall for you but destiny
made me do exactly that and I let you into my heart.
Soon you started
changing. Your long texts became shorter by time. You did not have time for me.
You ignored me and cut me out of your life. I kept waiting for you. You ignored
my messages and calls. And despite that you hurt me and abused me. Every single
day I waited for your call and messages. And I would look at every message and
every call hoping it was you. For hundred messages, you'd send one reply” I’m
busy" .Maybe I was too good for your ego. Maybe you liked knowing
that someone was always available to answer your texts. Maybe you liked seeing
someone who worked so hard to get your attention and love. And one
day you said "Please move on!" I begged "what did I do wrong,
Please don't leave me...I'll do anything. You’re the only reason for my
happiness" and you said “I don't love you” those words are enough to tear
me apart into thousand pieces. Every night I cried to sleep because I want to
figure out what went wrong. I blamed myself for everything. I never thought the
things I loved would teach me a lesson. You shouldn't have made me fall for you
when you knew that you wouldn't be around to catch me when I fell. I kept
giving my self respect in the process of loving you. I was depressed. I
couldn't smile. I thought of ending my life. I lived through it. Traveled
alone. Explored places alone.
And now I am just
tired!!! I am not angry at you. I know I should be, but I am not, I just feel
the pain a lot of pain. It hurts to let go but I have to. I couldn't find
anything that I could get attached to emotionally other than my work. Yes, I
moved on. Now that I know who I am, I know that you are no longer a reason for
my smile. Now you’re just another part of my past. Maybe it’s time to turn the
page. But people change after they have been hurt. So did I. And for
that thank you!!!!.......
